BLACK&WHITE

-Saturday, January 31, 2009 '

flashbacks;
i still do space out when i talk about it.

euphoria;
is what that i look forward every other day.

disappointments;
when it seems like history is repeating itself.

i need to believe that it'll be different, before its too late.

9:14 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Friday, January 30, 2009 '

poor time management is killing me. sososo much. i planned to finish econs paper, tutorial, and more papers yesterday. but hahaha, didnt manage to. and this morning i overslept, and was late again.

i still have 2 movies that i wanna watch! the wedding game and bride wars! but exams are coming soon eh. v soon. i've got so many things undone. :(

and its the weekends again! which means that we're all another week closer to the final papers. working tmr morning! whooooo.

gosh. itab is gonna be due soon.

/edit
mandy! sorry for scaring you during MOB today because of my carelessness. :x

4:12 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Thursday, January 29, 2009 '

caught love matters with the cartel people today! i think its super funny! was laughing like crazy in the beginning and the end. and then yoshinoya again for dinner. heh.

alright. gng sleep now. (again) GOODNIGHT!

you've got my heart racing.

1:27 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Wednesday, January 28, 2009 '

i wonder if i've lost my ability to sense it. if i lost it because of that, it'll mean that its not the end yet, or worse, its the end, and there're no means to save it.

and all i get are question marks.

12:54 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Tuesday, January 27, 2009 '

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

and so i spent my entire first day of the lunar new year at home. somewhat similar to the 1st January new year of 2009. except that on 1st Jan, i went to see a doc, and i went to the temple just now.

i'm gonna go sleep now, cos i'm working tmr morning. double pay eh! HAHAHAHA. and then to grandma's house in the evening. i just hope i dont screw up work tmr just like i did last saturday. i have no idea why i've been blogging just right before i turn off my lappy lately. hahaha.

if r/s were that easy to get over, there won't be sucha thing called heartbreak. either that, or you didn't love your guts out.

OKAY GOODNIGHT. (:

12:35 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Sunday, January 25, 2009 '

I RECEIVED MY NAME INK/STAMP ALREADY. HEHEHE.

i did my spring cleaning for my room till now. HAHAHA. now i'm reallyyyyy tired. whoo.

okay i'm really really tired. gng sleep now. heh.

2:28 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Friday, January 23, 2009 '

my hectic week will be over soon. YAY. hahaha.

i suddenly got very desperate in finding new year clothes. really really desperate. i thought i wouldn't mind not getting any, but actually, I THINK I MIND A LOT A LOT. HAHAHHA. and mama will be shopping with me at jurong point tonight. YAYNESS. WHOOOOO.

someone told me life is like an album, a song album. its quite true, the way its explained.

okay. MOB now. hah.

2:55 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Thursday, January 22, 2009 '

made a name ink/stamp with shirley this afternoon (or rather, yesterday afternoon). hahaha. it'll be arriving via postage! i hope it'll turn out fine! :D

ohya. i had a little surprise for sis during itab. the day before itab, i told sis i had a surprise for him, and he was kinda scared la. hor? HAHAHA. anw, my hair got chopped off too. but nvm, my head feels light. hehehe. :D

dined at cartel at bishan just now too! mainly desserts ah. actually its 3 dessert, plus a drink. we made some ourselves! roy's treat with his cartel vouchers. then to plaza sing, and then bugis, and then home. walked a lot today eh. good exercise! heh! :D

i'm feeling the pain in my heels already. @.@ ohya, i havent got my new year clothes yet. maybe i'm not getting any this year. but i do want to go shopping! :(

i got my pay already. hohoho. not a lot though. i think i'm gonna support myself with it, excluding expenses like school fees. it'll be very limited, but i think i'll pull through. :)

my throat isnt getting any better. dang.

okay. my bed is calling for me. hahaha. nites eh! :D

12:23 AM;
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-Wednesday, January 21, 2009 '

i'm totally lost in MS Frontpage. dang. its all because i love my bed too much eh. HAHAHA. in other words, i was late for school. heh.

i cleaned my study room at midnight. HAHA. and now its super neat. at least it looks neat to me. mama has been saying that i wasn't doing much of spring cleaning. and so i did some, and when i was packing, she came and told me to go sleep, and to forget about cleaning. hahaha. but i still continued anw. <3 mama la. heh. :D

i think i'm gonna receive another warning letter for my gems. i cant make it this week tooooo. blame my poor memory for it then. and i don't want to be barred from my CA because of my attendance! and, sorry joshua. like everytime pangseh you like that. @.@

OKAY. I'M GNG FIND THAT ONLINE GAMES WEB. THE WEB WHICH I FORGOT THE URL. TSK.

10:21 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Tuesday, January 20, 2009 '

i told shirley that i would be sleeping by 9pm tonight. and its a bit over 3 hours past that time. i didn't know that i'm so wols. tsk.

IDEAS DOWN. the last few assignments left are ITAB and gems essay. and then its the exams, and then its the HOLIDAYS! :D

okayyyyy. i'm gng sleep now. Cynthia is lacking sleep, many many, many many.

12:10 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Monday, January 19, 2009 '

don't do things for the sake of doing it.
do it, to achieve it.
otherwise its just a complete waste of time and effort.

caught red cliff 2 with peini yesterday night. i think its nice. ah liang v clever eh. heh. reached home pretty late. :x and worked today, and airport duty just now. was super tired and exhausted at work this morning. couldn't really focus. :x hahaha. and something baddddd happened today. peini knows. :x

i'd rather believe in my senses, than get hurt.

hectic week ahead next week! @.@

2:06 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Wednesday, January 14, 2009 '

i've been coughing my lungs out these few days.
dont know whats wrong too.
prolly its just the weather,
and hopefully its just the weather.
i cant afford to fall sick now, and again.

i've got to continue my race, again.

10:28 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

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i buried it all inside, and thought i could get away with it. but i couldn't eh. it kinda hurts to be reminded about it.
i just wanna know why i'm not over it.

samsung. sucks. many many, and super much.
if only i wasn't so stubborn to not bring my spare battery and charger.
tsk.

and i really wanna thank the people who worry about my stuffs. thanks people. :)

10:29 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Tuesday, January 13, 2009 '

i've been coughing quite a lot lately, but mostly at home. hahaha. i also dont know whats wrong eh. Lol.

crs was pretty bad with the entire class present. the 2 groups that went first yesterday were quite lucky uh. nvm. i'll just convince myself that its just 40%. hahaha. NOT.

mob was pretty bad too. the scoring system sucks okay. because my team is the last team la. 30points for the 1st, and 5 points for the last. we failed this section badly, just because we lost in a game. i think its kinda stupid. again, i feel this way prolly because my team is affected super badly.

alright. i'm super tired. really really tired. no more tutorials tonight. hah.

i know i'll fight and resist it,
but part of me doesn't want to.

10:54 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Monday, January 12, 2009 '

i'm running a never ending race.

it feels like its forever the o'level period now.

assignments and projects come in and they're piling up,

way too fast.

i've lost my sense of urgency.

if only i could make up my mind properly.

everytime i've made a decision, something happens.

something that made me reconsider.

my heels hurt.

and thats normal for every monday.

every monday after airport duty.

i'm gng continue my race people.

byeeeee.

10:29 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Sunday, January 11, 2009 '

its high time for me to go runninggggg or do some form of exercise la. hahaha. ive been spending a lot of money on eating these days. @.@

i'm thinking about ___ it. hahaha. but its about the effort i've already put in though. sigh.

alrighty. im gng sleep nowwwww. nites and take care people! :D

1:26 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Tuesday, January 06, 2009 '

back to school. and its the first day of school for 2009 for me. hohoho.

i miss working mann. really. i cancelled a total of 20.5 hours of schedule last week because of what happened. so i'll make sure im going to enjoy work this saturday and sunday. :D

itab tmr. theres some test tmr. and then im gonna go food hunting. then its bbq social gathering meeting. then i have piano lesson. whooooo. what a day. hah.

you know it sucks totally when no one believes you.

7:24 PM;
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-Monday, January 05, 2009 '

hooooo. im back at home already

many many thanks to:

- papa, mama and kor
- peini (!), brian, roy, pearlyn, derrick
- alfred, benjaminLEE, boonsiong, chien wei, chongxiang, darrenKOH, derek, elsen, kaiqin, kok keong, weijie, weikiat, vincent, yongxiang
- delphine, pei shan and many many church people

who came to visit. im so touched la. really really really.

the flowers the cartel people got for me. so sweet. :D roy got us some snacks because we complained that we were hungry. hahaha. thanks eh! :D

im gng back to school tmr. whooooo. alexandra's food is really nice. hahahaha. i think i gained weight already =x

and to joshua who wanted this:
HAPPY NEW YEAR TOO! may your hand get better soon! and thank you many many for going to gems class with me so often! whoo! you rock eh! :D

alright! i think im becoming more tired le. energy from my nap is wearing off. @.@

11:16 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

-Thursday, January 01, 2009 '

as requested from delphineeeee.

good points about her:
- available almost 24/7
- gives logical advice
- great listener
- looks confidence and speaks with confidence
- able to reassure people
- very sensitive to what people do or say (as in you dont need to say it directly, she'll get you. :D )

bad points about her:
- quite sensitive to what people do (in a bad way)
- very conscious about her image

wishes for her:
- i hope your jian fei ji hua will succeed!
- i hope you take good care of yourself when your school reopens!
- you should also try to put down the unhappy things in 2008!
- i hope she comes out to meet me more! :D

hahaha. thats all. short entry, but i took quite some time to get it done. take care bestie! sorry for the wait ah. anw, thanks for the advice 2 nights ago. i really woke up and feel that i shld just let it be. and thanks for that touching sms that made me cry on the bus home. cos at that point of time i was really really sad, and was on the verge of breaking down. nevertheless, it showed that you cared. you believed me though you weren't with me. and when you took care of me at your workplace, i was awfully touched. i could really feel your concern for me. you even made me a card while i was resting, and walked to to the main road when i had to leave. you also went down to bishan just to check if i was alright, and you waited for 3 long hours even though i only noticed you around 2 hours after you came. thank you so much bestie. :')

11:33 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

skipped school yesterday though i was already out. and so i went to bestie's workplace to sleep. HAHAHA. you were so damn sweet la! still make me card somemore. -shy- hahaha. and then i went to work after taking 2 pills.

public holiday eves are super busyyyyy. its actually the first time i saw a queue outside cartel on a weekday. i was the cashier, but actually, i billed less than 10 tables, because there were many db things to do! @.@ i got extended till 5pm, because i really couldn't finish doing my things. then brian came in earlier to help me a bit. hahaha. then bestie came to check on me to see if im alright. so sweet. awwwww. but i was still fine, just a little shagged.

i reached home to find that im really not fine. HAHAHA. so in the end, i stayed at home and countdown to the new year in my dreams, who occasional smses and calls to wish me a happy new year. the surprising thing is that my voice was distorted when i picked up the call. as in i dont know to cough and cough to get the sound right. hahaha.

then then then. 1st jan 2009! i couldnt work la. mann. 1.5X pay leh! i very very sad ah. x( and so i've decided to work on chinese new year! HAHAHA. whooooo

okayokay. im not going to school tmr cos i got mc! im going to make full use of what the doc gave me. if not its not worth the money. HAHAHA! (plus i haven't do my econs tutorial yet. :x )

gng sleep now.

ohya, when i have fever, i have weird dreams. i dreamt about the ninja turtles last time, and last night, i was trying my best to memorise the flea fly camp song. HAHAHA. i dont know why. HAHA.

NITES AND HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

10:34 PM;
&I'll let it all end here.